Where to do you start?
So many words define people. And none of this makes my happy.
I'll use my words.
Wife, mother, friend, confidant, yogi, hiker.
Not what you are looking for? Well, me neither.
Because a lot of those words were taken away from me. And I'm taking them back.
I may not identify with them right now, but I will.
How do you go from 35 years to nothing. To people looking at you with pity on their face? What word did you lose? All of them, a few of them?
So stop now if you are political, this is not political. Nothing to do with you. For once in my life this is about me, not about you.
I lost a few pronouns recently. Wife was the big one. This made me realize how much people are defined about who they are, what they are, what they are supposed to be. Just words. When you feel that part of yourself fall away it not just changes who you are but it changes how you interact.
I am back to being a woman, single. Keep laughing, I know. At my age this is unbelievable.
So here I am thinking:
What in the hell am I doing?
Do those hair loss things really work?
Maybe pot gummies really work?
Which dating website actually works?
Everytime I try to get on the dating websites I chicken out. Everyone is like, "Like the picture of your dog, but what about you?" Ugh.
I want to just hide for a while and not have to deal with this, but I need new pronouns. Single/Singlelet? On the prowl/out for options?
Then I remember my grandmother, "Get your shit together," a better pronoun than all the ones above. Get my shit together and start finding new ways to define myself than the basic stuff.
New pronouns:
Badass
Wonder Woman
Together
Warrior.
It's all in how you define yourself.
